by: Rebecca Taylor
Sienna’s heart felt torn. She loved Todd Brody, but having never met him had no idea if it would ever happen. She had been on a real date with Ben Bates and liked him. She had a chance to have a future with him, but was it being unfaithful to Todd? Technically not, she supposed, as they had no actual ties to each other, only the amazing love that she held in her heart from her dreams. Todd already had a daughter and she had no idea where he lived. Ben was in her town and easily accessible. She had a physical shot of being with him. She wondered if it was love that she craved and that was why she had so enjoyed her evening with Ben. The night after her date was dreamless, but she kept waking up. She and Ben were much closer in age than she and Todd. They also had a better chance of having a traditional relationship. She wished that she could find Todd. She hoped that by meeting him, she would know the truth about what they could perhaps be. She felt like she had exhausted all her avenues when it came to searching for him. Sienna hoped that he would contact her. She had too much information about him to believe that he was just a fantasy of hers. If she had just been seeking love, she didn’t think she would have dreamed up a man who was twenty years her senior. Nothing made sense anymore and she had no idea where to turn. She did know though that she had to keep living her life. Somewhere out there, there had to be the answers to her life and she just had to keep searching for them. A chilling thought ran through her – what if Todd wasn’t alive anymore – what if he were an angel sent to help her find love. The thought was too frightening and sad to think about. She said a silent prayer for Todd and for answers. She wished his name wasn’t so popular so that she could find information online. His being in the military didn’t help her search. She wondered how much a private detective cost, perhaps it was what she needed to settle things. If anyone could find Todd, it would be a professional. However, her savings weren’t very large, so she decided to hold out on that avenue for a while. She would see Ben again, and see where that led. She wouldn’t give up on Todd but she also wouldn’t give up on herself. Ben was a nice guy and by getting to know him, she would be able to find out if her feelings for him were real.